Self pity results when you start reaching in.
That happens when you stop reaching out.
Then you undo all the good work God has ever done in you.
So get your act together Ben! C’mon!
We’ve got a war to fight
and less than a lifetime to win it!
so Hooyah soldier!
Everything on, Lets go!
Do you make use of your friends?
Do you lie to them?
If we’re friends, why cannot you be honest?
Why do you betray a trust for convenience…
I understand we have different views of friendship.
Still, I feel so cheated.
This is one weakness of mine.
You knew, and you made use of it.
I wish i never knew you.
But i’m glad I did. You helped me understand me better.
The true life story of the greatest Navy Seal casualty in history will stir in my memory for a long time to come.
A few years ago, courage, honor and superhuman grit were displayed in a battle that cost the lives of 16 Us special forces and 3 US navy seals. The book “lone survivor” recounts how Lieutenant Mike Murphy and his single 4-men team held their ground in a furious firefight against thousands of Taliban bastards in afghanistan.
They faced impossible odds…
One by one, they were shot multiple times but continued to fight even as life ebbed out of them.
One of Liutenent Mike Murphy’s last words before his death were “Fuck Surrender”.
The Church is getting soft, compromise is rife, education slack.
Leaders are using pastoral and “fellowship” as an excuse to maximize their own utility
Problems run amok, and lives are spinning out of control.
Yet this our creed:
Surrender is not a ranger word.
For me and my team.
I have a quote sitting on my board for a long time. It reads:
“Lecturers mark your assignments, Bosses mark your performance but God marks your life.”
The time that I have left is all I am of worth.
Incredible, I think, the matters I give my heart and soul to.
Perhaps something’s gone awry.
If I’ll pause for a moment to ask…
What is most important, pressing, and most urgent in my life?
Away from the noise, I’d realise the truth.
…My walk with Him, and how He thinks of me.
If I was led by him, and if He has lived in me.
Degrees are great, honors are better,
but perhaps most enticing are the doors to great and unthinkable opportunities that these open.
But in His sight, a gentle and quiet spirit is of the greatest worth.
Never is there a good time to spend with God. I’m either too sleepy in the morning or too tired at night. It can be too hot in the day, or that there’s simply too much to be done!
-too much homework
-too little entertainment
-too little sleep
-too much to do
-so many books to read
-so much to accomplish,
-too many projects
No time God, no time…
The bible is so big.. How should I start, where do I end? HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE.. As I flip through the pages, there’re so many words..
I want:
-instant answers
-instant wisdom
-instant healing
-instant solutions to my problems
..instant growth instant blessings, instAnt results!
I don’t wanna pray, I don’t wanna seek the wisdom of the bible diligently. I don’t wanna wait patiently on the Lord.
I don’t wanna fast and pray! It makes me hungry and weak..
I just want instant answers.
I google bible verses, download instant podcasts and… rely on weekly services and Christian friends for support.
When I’m down and lonely,
Msn, facebook & twitter are my life support. I look for ppl to SMS and ask them out. I constantly check my facebook for comments and updates to fill the hole inside…
God takes too long.
When I’m bored, YouTube, games and movies and books… They satisfy me instantly.
I don’t wanna wait for God to meet my needs.. I don’t wanna go to him on bended knees…
I want my life and I want it now.
I just don’t want to hear the still small
whispers from God where it really matters most..
I don’t want the quietness and trust which gives me real strength, the repentance and rest which draws me close to Him. I would have none of it..
I don’t want to remember God in Deuteronomy 8, that he bought me out of Egypt and gave me the land that I now enjoy, a land filled with milk and honey, where gold and silver are aplenty. I don’t want to remember him in my wealth and comfort, that all I have came from him.
I don’t want to go to the father and sit at his feet… To lean back against him.. to hear his heartbeat..
To offer the sacrifice of praise and the best hour of my day in worship, true reverent thankful heartfelt worship? Far be it from me…
Gone are the days where the people of Israel just seek him…
Seek him..
put aside everything and
Just Seek him…
In my class, all of us have to give presentations on our topic of study. I was so intimidated by the scope and depth of my journal that I grew a few years older. I have stage fright, but I think some benevolent force added courage to me today. I also got to know a few of my classmates a little better.
Turns out, Noraini’s a police officer for 8 years already! That makes a staff sergeant! How I found out? Well, she noticed a little “I can do it =)” written on my left hand! How observant of her. Then I guessed that she was in the police force and we began speaking and joking. She always tries to evade compliments and I find myself doing the same. I thought I should bring our evasive conversation to more meaningful heights. So… I started asking about why she joined the force, to which she replied: “Passion lor..” By that time, class had already ended. Till next class!
Si Jun’s learning Korean just like me! And Jason is too! As we progressed, Ronald joined the conversation. He’s a really nice person who always encourages. He presents really well, with animations and captions and the like… Today, he wore a crucifix around his neck confirming my long held suspicion that he’s a Christian. ^^ But… This is just a suspicion. We chatted a little about Korean dramas and shows, then Si Jun said she was to give a presentation in Korean tomorrow! Wow! I wanna reach her level man! Until then, I’ll be calling her Ahjumma! LOL! I’m longing for more opportunities to practice my Korean!
Oh! And there’s Kelly! Did you guess? She’s a violin player! She says she learnt violin for fun, so she doesn’t have a grade. Just like me! Hehe! Music.. What in the world! Kelly invited me to study with her too…She says studying with me, she’ll definitely get good grades. She’s obviously jesting… haha.. But I’m counting on it! I hope we really get to go out together with all the others..! And study of course!
Stephy (Stephanie)! She’s the girl in the lecture hall I shy over. When I found out by chance that she was attached, I was devastated. Not devastated devastated, but the disappointed kind. U know the kind of feeling.. “Aww… if only she knew who the true lover was” kind.. Following that, I didn’t speak with her for 3 months! Never got the chance, until today!
As usual, she was with her gang, and I was lucky to be inside. And then she said: Enchante, comment ca va, and tres bien really well! Turns out, she had lived in France for 2 months!! Ooh la la! And I was crazy over the French language!.
How do I proceed on this unfamiliar ground? I’m so used to deadlocks and stalemates.. Gosh.. How should I proceed?
Lead… I will follow. I’m so fearful…
My bag is so heavy with all those Christmas cards…
Decided after some time to dedicate a journal to my learning [worldview] —> at the sidebar.
I will still scribble my personal [heart] learning on this page
I learnt something today, that purity of heart is to will one thing.
So many people have quoted this, just that i didn’t understand what it meant.. until today..
Strength and power are really found only in solitude – when i spend quiet time. Today, I experienced a huge weight and unrest about me that i couldn’t explain, so I went out, tried to sleep, tried some books and tried everything else…
finally turned to solitude and prayer. … . . What an amazing place…
I learnt that i must pray for a vision and purpose so strong that my focus will be sooooo strong. Indeed, a focus so SO strong that my heart is fully devoted to it …
U know.. A focused laser beam that cuts thru diamonds rather than the widespread rays of the sun that just gives…a sun tann..
so focused.. so powerful, so love-ly… so pure, so cool…
Purity of heart is to will one thing. Just one thing…
How pure is that!
When i’m tired, i’ll drag my feet over to T3′s viewing mall where its practically empty of human beings. I have a shirt, a jacket and a pair of jeans that’ll keep me warm with the benches as my bed. My bag will be my pillow. Here, the air is never warm and strangers are always welcome.
As i walk past empty shops and corridors I see strangers asleep blissfully in corners unseen. Some are perched atop benches while others are curled up into tiny angels
I’ll wake up to christmas songs and the sight of planes taking off and landing! These precious moments alone with God, moments that I treasure dearly.
Caught up with some friends from primary school tonight.
We went for dinner at Nydc! Food wasn’t too good, but the catch up was!
Knowing they were doing well made me happy, and also, took my mind off exams for awhile
I’m definitely a phleg because i wake up late…
I yawn alot..
I yawn so much you can count my teeth. and fillings..
Im lazy and ill disciplined, moronic and idealistic.
I’m also idiotic, phlegmatic and eat-crabstick-istic.
Although I do hate sistic, statistics and being systematic.
I don’t always feel like doing anything.
If Pokemon were real, I’d be Snorlax. Otherwise, i’d be a couch potato,
growing fatter and fatter with you.
I’m friendly, really friendly, and really really friendly.
U can ask me anything. I’m always steady.
I will answer your questions with stability =)
I’m easygoing. Well, there’re many levels really..
there’s noob, easy, novice, intermediate, advanced..
I’m just.. easygoing.
I eat any type of food, drink any kind of drink,
listen to any genre of (jazz) music.
Everytime I hear a sermon about being lukewarm, or about cruising,”
i always feel guilty.
My favourite hobby in the morning is sleeping.
My most unfavourite* hobby is waking up.
But after that i’ll find some meaning in waking up,
and then it won’t seem so bad =)
Wadever u call it
Plag , phreaq, flag, phleK, or preagg… or even pledge…
That’s me (=
